gav drew this to keep the storm away and said he's not worried anymore

Fun While It Lasted...

Well, I am sad. I thought I had found my religion... and turns out... It's just not true. I spent 2 years of my life researching...and it's just not true. What a let down. I actually believed it was .. and soooo many other people still do. All it took, was one Sunday school that I was the teacher of 4 year olds and not just the assistant to get me started on this brand new journey...What's the reason behind this? Why did I believe? And that's not even the BIG question. The BIG question is... Where do I go from here????? I can't just pretend I still believe the church is true... and I certainly cannot go about helping program those cute little kids for even one more Sunday... How do I go about informing the teacher I have been assisting? The bishop? My new friends???.... Will they listen?? or will they be scared to?.. because this to them.. means the devil must have gotten to me...The programming starts at birth... They have every reason to believe they are right.. That's how the brain works... And this had to happen for a reason... and not just because I really did need them to help me get through a tough time.. it has to be more than that... Maybe I am to help set them free....

This family is a great place to start becoming informed:

Next... This guy taught in the LDS Church Education System for 14 years.. This is an interview with him and his wife.... It's 4 hours long.. and if you grew up in the LDS church.. you will want to watch the entire 4 hours.. I have only been a member for a little over a year.. and I was glued to this interview...

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And then there is this lady...

And this one....

And if that's not enough... you can find plenty more on youtube....

P.S. Mormons are the nicest people I have ever met in my life... And why wouldn't they be.. they are programmed to be so... driven by fear and guilt... and of course... love of the Savior. They are awesome... Haven't met a single one that I didn't like.

P.P.S. Looking forward to my next obsession.....

December 10th, 2013

update:

My next obsession was the world of unschooling!! I am going to be blogging about it soon. I just feel the need to update a little on this Mormon subject.... It's been a couple years since I lost my faith in the church being true. I lost my faith in Jesus being true soon after losing faith in the church. :(  But I got it back about a month ago!! And now I wanna go back to church!! I got my friend to pick me up some tithing slips.. And now I'm well on my way to keeping the word of wisdom. I don't know when I will go back to church..still pondering that one, but I have been studying daily. I have learned a lot about myself this year. I am probably never going to be given a Temple recommend and I am o.k. with that. I still want to attend church. The closest LDS church is just so far away right now. I am strongly hoping to move to Dallas. I will gladly go to church when I move. 

Also, I don't want this blog to be about my spirituality. I want it to be about my childrens' unique education. So, I will be deleting this post soon...whenever I start back super blogging. 

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Breakfast Time for the Very Little Ones

This is Kanoa and Abby playing this morning:

One day I will have a new phone and be able to take better pictures. :)

I thought this was SO cute. I wasn't playing with them.... They did this all on their own. Our babies sure are growing up!!!

Gavin drew a pig!

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Happy 11/11/11!!!

Dinner Last Night

Was Awesome.

A list to go along with my current concerns

 Now.. in the teacher's defense... I have only assumed that she told Gavin to try to stay inside the lines. I don't know anything for sure... but..
link:I am super bothered by the whole staying in the lines nonsense and so is this guy.

The comments in this next link have many concerns of mine... and more so, many personal opinions.
link:Washing and Sanitizing Hands Numerous Times a Day
Germ-X was on Gavin's school supply list. I did not buy it. Instead, I got this hand sanitizer(link) and this hand soap.(link)

not really school related.. i don't know if they have highlights magazines @ school.. but we get Puzzle Buzz every month for Gavin at home.. and I have a concern or a theory.. Do y'all remember the What's Wrong? section? Think for a minute what effect that might have had on us... Seems to me that it trained us to always look for what's wrong.. spot the flaws in every situation maybe... And I haven't let Gavin do that section for this reason. I've been just turning the page and moving onto something else, but I guess I will actually start taking them out because the other stuff that is in there is fine. So, we will continue to get them. :) AND if it concerns you, too, my churchs' website has this: (link)Spot The Similarities Game. :)

Life Goes On

My family recently experienced a change of scenery having decided to move on from the marriage. I can't think of a better way to put it. :( The kids and I are doing good. It's taking some adjustments and I've been making some tough decisions. I have started making skirts for money. So, that's pretty cool. I totally have a waiting list. It's not long or anything. But I have high hopes that I can make a career out of it. Since the big move, I have had some difficulties finding activities for my kids to do. This area is like that. I tried my best to get a storytime going at the local library and they actually turned me down... even after I had made a wonderful outline for a year and was going to do it for free... and bring all the supplies we needed. That was a major let down. I was going to get Gavin into a Martial Arts class, but he has to be 4 and a half to do that. And.. well.. I thought about the rec center in Minden.. how it has an indoor pool. So, my idea was to take the kids there and play... maybe learn how to swim. BUT they are not allowed in the indoor pool. While we were there we did, however, get picture id's for them!! They loved that! Here is a couple pics from that day...

We didn't break out the bat and ball, but we did pretend to play some baseball. :)

Here are a couple pics from when we took our dog, Sebastian to the vet. He didn't make it in the pictures, but this Garfield like cat did. I think his name might be George.

My Mom and I took the kids to the fair.... She took much better pics than I did. These are mine..

And after A LOT of thinking... and Gavin begging... I put him in Pre-School.

:(  I am not too happy with this decision.. My heart is breaking. Yesterday was his second day. Here are some pics from his first day, Monday...

He started off pretty happy.

^ that's my favorite pic. I think that kid is going to be his best friend.

He found a cool car.. and was excited to figure out that the doors open.

Right after this one was taken, I gave him a hug and kiss and told him bye.

When I picked him up... He said, "The kids threw dirt in my mouth." He fell at lunch pretty badly.... enough to bleed. He said he didn't want to go back.

Of course, the second day came... I made him get up.. even though he said "I don't waaaaaanna goooooo to schooooooooooool! I wanna stay with yoooooooou!"

He kept this up...the teacher had to hold him back from following me when I left him... Then... in the car, Abby kept saying, "My brother. My brother. My brother," over and over again. And then I sobbed.

When I went to pick him up, there was a good report in his folder about how great he did with the other kids and how good his fine motor skills are for his age. Seriously, I think these people have it in their heads that he hasn't been around other kids his whole life because he has been "homeschooled." Geez. And I have to say...it's going to be hard for me to receive "good job" reports...because I get the urge to be like, "Duh. I know, thanks," even though I know they are just doing their job.

Also, in the folder was a coloring page he did with one of my worst nightmares on it. The teacher wrote on there that he did such a good job trying to stay inside the lines. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can anyone tell I am having a hard time with this?

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BUT at the end of the day he said he had fun at school. Good. Because it costs a bunch of money. I could be wrong, I am not that great at math, but with the amount of money that goes into that school... it seems there should be a swimming pool and a greenhouse. I told him that if he doesn't want to go back to school next year, he doesn't have to. I wonder what he will decide...

p.s. I typed this post @ 4 this morning... and now it's 8:10.. Gavin didn't say anything about not wanting to go to school this morning!!! :) YAY. He just walked right in there. The drop off went great. Score. I feel better now.

The Webster Parish Library Is Awesome

                                          

This was a Storytime day that we went to.

They had fun while they waited for it to start.

 In that picture^, Abby is thinking, "Well, should I take a bite?" She managed to fight the urge. :) 

I still forgot to get a pic when they were listening to the book being read. :/ Oops.

Storytime @ Webster Parish Library

I love taking the kids to storytime! This was our first one at the Minden Library. Next time I will have to get a picture of everyone while the book is actually being read. :) I love, love, love that the book was about art today and that the kids got to paint. They paint often, but they never have while at a library before.

We found some other homeschool kids there, too. It gave me another chance to explain how cool it must be to be homeschooled... I'm sure they have storytime at traditional schools and all, but it has to more peaceful in this setting. less kids, less hustle and bustle, more fun :) They had a great time. We plan on being there every Wednesday from now on. The lady, I didn't catch her name, has been doing Storytime there for at least 10 years. That's how long those homeschool kids have been going up there. I am glad to have found something that is continuous and reliable. :)

There is an exceptionally good kid area that is all closed off from the main area of the library. So, the kiddos don't have to worry about being quiet in there. Also, there are awesome toys and, of course, TONS of books compared to the library in Homer, LA, where we actually live.

 I will say this, though: The cool kid computer that they have at the Claiborne Parish Library(Homer) is GREAT. Gavin LOVES it. Speaking of Storytime, I checked at the Homer library yesterday to see if they have one going on. Well, they used to, but it got bothersome for the lady that was doing it for a few different reasons. I couldn't talk to her because she wasn't there and won't be back until Monday. So, when Monday comes around I am going back up there and volunteering to organize it myself. The lady, Suzanne, that I did talk to, made it seem like she will probably say yes! That's exciting. Project.

Super glad Josslyn and her mommy, Jaime came with us!

 

our trip to Wal-Mart afterwards :)

I had to put this on here because when I found it, I fell in love. Thank you, Pinterest for being my new found internet obsession. I have found many wonderful things on your website.

Playdate @ Kati's

"Hey, doggy. :)" -Abby

Wow, that's one big doggy.

I Have Not Blogged Lately

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translation:
this is why!! my computer thinks that it is funny to do this to me. if it wasn't so complicated to type so that everyone can read it.. i would!!

i would love to blog my little heart out, but it's not worth the effort.. it just adds to my current stress.

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update0ct.9,2011:
well, it took me a couple months, but i finally figured out that the number lock key was on. wow, i feel dumb. so glad that is over! now.. back to blogging just as soon as i have something interesting to say. give me a few days :)

yay.